Latch on to me, if you cannot walk, I can carry you for a while.....

Engrossed in this mundane life of going to school, research, finding a job, feels like I am lost in a dense forest.Even the movement of a leaf seems like a crouching tiger to me.Fear growing immensely, finding a solution for these things became a huge challenge. No time to relax, with my project coming to an end, I have been working almost 12 hours a day. Completely exhausted after finishing my report on Friday at 7 Pm, I decide to come back home and take off the entire weekend. I went out for a movie called Dasavatharam, which was even more exhausting.Sleepy that I was, I got lost in some distinct thoughts, of getting a reply from the company that just interviewed me last week and about the work that my boss is gonna task me with and some thoughts about some one really special and the nice time I might have with that person if I went back to India. Disconnected, my train of thoughts run on different tracks. What was really exciting was meeting a good friend of mine whom I have not seen for a month. After some kalaai we all departed to our bunkers. I Walked bare foot cos I was too lazy to put on my shoes. I tore my foot.With some blood woozing out I had a band aid on and got dropped home. Appreciating a friend who said he could wait to accompany me home , appreciating the friend who got some cotton and band aid and the friend who says take care for I was in pain, I go back to my bunker.
Regardless of what each one of us in undergoing at that situation, the pressures, the kinda life each one of us is leading, when we get together everything looks so simple and easy.

Its a pleasure to have so many people who care for you.Its really not important whether he tells you he loves you.Its all in the actions.I will now go to sleep in peace, cos now I know, there are so many who are ready to say, Hey, Do you need support? you are hurt.

See what you can learn from every experience, it will be enriching....

The last 3 months of my life has been really hectic.I have been waiting to find time to write a blog.I happened to experience one of the most memorable incidents.I wish to share it, spread some wisdom. Find it comical or thought provoking is our choice. I started to work harder, even after being stressed out due to long working hours, cos I was given a dead line of completing my thesis work by August. Its kind of exciting and exhausting to be in a situation like this.Complete your experimentation, finishing the write up, and applying for jobs.I am not the only one with so many challenges. I know there is much more I will have to face in life if I have to be massive success. I wish I had all the strength in the world.If I were still praying God, I would ask him only one thing, strength and stamina. Now that I don't I have to derive some strength from some energy factors around me, my mom, my dad, my bro and some special people, my friends. Off late, that strength has not been sufficient to to burn all my cylinders.I felt I burnt up all my fuel when, I walked out of my lab 4 days ago. Some thing struck me and I said I would go back to the lab and finish up the rest of the work so that I could complete things faster.I wish this had not happened, but I am happy it did. I broke two components on that day, in the lab.I knew I was screwed.Adrenaline shot up and I was completely perplexed.I was literally in tears.I had to report the damage to my Professor.I did it.I sent him and the next day, I met him. He was really mad at me, but he was so composed and rational about it, which made me even more guilty and he told me all that I had to do to improve further. I realized how much I did not know, and I was humbled.It is surprising to see how much engineering humbles a person. By the time you finish a project you realize how much you don't know. After having learnt, how much of improvement I needed to make, I went down to the lab completely upset and the following weekend I was really upset and was sleepless. The Monday morning was slow, I went to the lab and was making a new cable for my encoder.I observed closely the old cable, and I found that the copper wire inside one of the wires had broken. OOOOOOOOOOOOops crazy and I used the new cable and the old component worked. I ran to tell my prof and he was happy I had not broken them.Now I did some post event anaysis to find out what actually happened. Now I did some post event analysis,
I realised it was such a nice feedback from him, I understood how much he wanted me to work.I dont blame him, he is my teacher and he would say anything only to make me better. It gave me a paradigm shift and my work has certainly improved after that.I am sure he must have noticed it.I am happy for what happened that day and everything in life is a learning experience, believe in that, you will go great heights.

Constrain yourself by constraining your thoughts

I have been waiting for the last one month to find some nice topic that I could write on, I have found one.Over the last one month I wanted to take control of my life since life has been controlling me for all the while.I am not the kind of person who believes in destiny. I have a unique perspective about life.We get what we want,only if we want it baaaaadly.It is completely wrong.We get what we want only if we love it, only if we are passionate about it.
I have been "studying" a book lately"I can make you rich".It has become my geetha....Lemme make sure I convey the message to the world.Most of us are intimidated by something that is very simple to do-Imagine.Jus nothing forming images in our minds.

I am sure all of us want to become rich make loads of money to live a happy and a prosperous life.When we are asked how much money you wanna make, we would not know.We give a vague answer.There is no clarity.Clarity makes sure we know what we want, which is the first step.

Coming to the actual reason why we dont make all the money we need to live rich?Is it because we are not managing money well?Is it because we dont love it?Is it because we dont have all the luck in the world to have the money we want?Is it because we are not qualified to make so much money?Is it because our job does not provide us an opportunity to make enough money?

None of the above is the answer.
We dont see ourselves making so much money.We have constraints.We dont wish to think beyond our limits.Why do we have limitations in imagining ourselves to be big?Our scociety is encourages people to be humble about their achievements but people mistake it to being humble about what they want to be. All of us have a tendency to say, I am never gonna make as much money as Bill Gates or Ambanis or the TATA.We are all scared make images of ourselves making so much money.We limit our imagination to buying cars,we dont even think of buying a Mercedes, we have limitations, because we are afraid we cant make it.

People, a thought just struck me.Since we fear we cant make it so we are not able to.If we think we can thats possible too.Thats the power of imagination.Our subconscious is really powerful.Any suggestion given to it will be dealt with great regards and it will see to it that we become what we strongly believe we would be.Keep making images of yourself becoming what you want to be in your head and reinstate it again and again.You will certainly get what you want.

Once you start doing it make it more specific to time.This is how you achieve massive success.

All this is not jus about making money it applies to other things too.

Spread your imagination to larger horizons,relax your thoughts.Have not constraints in thoughts you will have no constraints in your achievements too.

May be Every bit of it needs to be rephrased,how ever, every bit of I mentioned is true and my experience.....

I was talking to one of my buddies last night and she asked me why I chose to write about nature, girlfriend poems, God and stuff."Why dont you write about Friends?"Oh what do I write about friends?

Simple

I have so many things to say,
If I started to write about
the whole of my life would not be enough.
Do I have so much time to just write about
Or do you have so much time to read all that?

Any way, now that she had given me a suggestion...

Walked along the rocky path up the smoky's
felt thirsty, stopped and looked around, I saw a stream of water, filled my bottle I could not fill the whole stream into my bottle, I know its a wierd thought.The water that filled the bottle gave me some stamina to some distance.I walked further, the stream started getting far away.

Now
It never mattered to me how long I had that water with me.Now the stream is not just for me.Take a bit of it, dont consume it all up, many are to be benifitted outta it.

Walked a lil more, really tired..wanted to sit...looked around found a trunk, lying across
went and sat on it, thinking about the pond.Really happy how helpful it was to me.But realising the reality, the nature of the stream is to flow, you cannot constrain it.
Now, bearing all my weight, not saying a word, the trunk supported me.Not giving up even when a 100 people sat on it at once.Now the trunk was really supportive.Now I cannot expect to occupy the whole trunk thats, selfishness.Many people are to be benifitted outta it.

Walked a lil more after the break. Climbed some steep trails.I held onto some branches , they had a great grip, and a strong hold.You would never trip and even if you did the branch would not let you fall.

You know what, these are the qualities my friends posses.All of them whom I thought were friends have given me strength, some way or the other.Some have been like the stream whom I dont wish to disturb.Some of them have been like the trunk and some have been like the branches that I held onto when I tumbled.

The truth is, nothing stayed with me for long,thats how life is meant to be.No one is gonna be with you all your life,how ever the time they spend with you would have some impact on you.Most of them only leave behind a nice memory.

A very few streams dont stop till you fill your bottle,
A very few trunks have sharp edges,
A very few branches break when you clinge onto

"Circumstancial phenomenon"

It is some kind of philosophical crap? I do not know if it interests any reader.I am not writing to impress any one,I am expressing.It is first of all very difficult to eulogise your friends, second of all if you decide to it gets tough to flatter them.

Patience,integrity,empathy,benovelence, are some qualities that I tried giving anologies for.

I am not sure if I did justice.May be I need to rephrase every bit of it..........

Hero's plight quite analogous to the shore?Just rearrange Shore find a hero's....

Each time the wave retreats it consumes a part of the shore,

Sea so fickle in making decisions, moves back and forth giving the shore hope for not more than a few moments.
When it was the time when the shore chose to detach the sea chose to consume the whole shore, causing enough damage to the shore.

Now the shore is worn out, weak and has no where to go.......

Moved in to my life and out of it jus like the waves.

Now the wave gives it explaination....
Simple and logical.....

How long are we jus going to stay at the distance?
I decided to make you "nothing",
so that I am happy I have lost "nothing"

Now the shore for a long time from now would not have to face any more casualities.....cos the it is already broken....

Only a squeaky wheel gets its greeze....

I was brought up in a highly controlled atmoshpere, talking sense, speaking soft, sophistication,
patience were some things that were taught at home.

No one taught me that only "A squeaky wheel gets it greeze".My mom says remain silent, never react to any thing, you might as well show your other cheek if some one hits on one.I thought my mom must be right, I kept showing the other one and each time I showed the other one I got hit on that too.I went and asked my mom who had told her that? She said she read it in Gandhi's autobigraphy. I said no one is following the Gandhian principles any more, they are giving one on the other cheek too.She said its ok , people will realise one day. No one even cares.No body is guilty for having hit me. They have taken advantage of my weakness. I did not want to hit back, cos I was scared, not because I will get hit again, it was because they will get hit.I wanted to be God, which was mere stupidity.I thought, God will help me if I remain silent and be patient.My mom did not know that ahimsa was used as a weapon when people had some sense of humanity, when people realised hiting some one was wrong and now people are not even aware of the fact that it is wrong.Forget about legal illegal business, about whether it is right or wrong .My mom did not realise that God had provided me with my limbs to protect myself.She was not aware that I could hit them back and still be a hero.She was so much convinced by Gandhian principles because he had proved once that it was possible to be patient and get your work done.It took him a long time to get us independence.But after bringing us independence he hardly took any actions to make the country a better one, whats the whole point?If he had hit them hard his followers would have stuck to his ideas and would have never taken advantage of his tolerance and created new parties.If we were still a British colony may be we would have been a wealthier country. Tolerance is one of the greatest banes India has got.We allowed people to concur us continously.Now being concurred by the corrupt politicians the whole country is going to drains. I am another Indian who has escaped to the US, to make my money and finally during my retired life would pull my easy chair and enjoy the breeze sipping a cup of coffee and reading a news paper reading the same old news.Develpoing Nations coming to gether to sign a treaty.How long are we gonna remain the same?

Now, I know I have no rights to talk about all the growth of the nation,they are some statements that only resposible people must make.Now I am not talking about the nation alone.People in specific.Hit back, if some one hits you,break his bones if he wishes to break yours, Make moves quick enough to escape blows Fight the world that is giving you so many troubles.Never remain silent, because

Only a squeaky wheel gets its greeze-it is quite synonymous to
"azhara kozhandaiku daaaan paaal"-Tamil

Eye sight

Are you God's most beautiful creation
or has he gifted me with a selective eyesight?