My Heart is crying out Loud " I am a helpless Indian"

I follow Times Now very regularly, majorly because my dad loves watching news and to add to it Arnab's arguments and the cadences make the news really sensational. I really dont worry about how much of truth is there in the news that is telecast. More so after watching Peepli Live and  Radia Tapes, we all must realize, very little of the entire spectrum of events is disclosed to the public. Talking of the word, Spectrum, I find it hard to forget Mr.A.Raja. Having eaten all that money, I dont even know how many zeros 1,76,000 crores has, he got a remand only for two days. Just a few weeks ago, half of the amount was swindled by the CWG authorities. I Read an article on Indian express last sunday. It was a very cynical review about the money saved in the Swiss Bank. Sarcasm at its best. Well, I see, very lil light at the end of this tunnel. 

Last week, I did not watch much of news, owing to the fact that it was boring. It was the revolution in Egypt. Then, 2 days ago, I watched Times Now again. I witnessed something really interesting. A scam again. Yeaaaaaa. The DEVAS-ISRO SCAM. I jumped on to my seat with all excitement to watch the news. Till such time, I was lazing around and browsing the channels with very little enthusiasm. With big names in the list, like Mr.Kasthri Rangan and others, the news got even more exciting. All the while, Mr.Clean, Dr.Manmohan Singh, who was escaping the scrutiny, is also now in deep trouble. 

At home, we often discuss inspiring events,inspiring people and new technology and news. My dad thinks its important to have a grip on multi-various topics. Last night, we were discussing about the scams, and I just realized, the plight of Indian children in the next century. They will read about the scams, money swindling, exploitation of the poor and common man, by the Gandhi Family, while we have read about Mahatma Gandhi, going on starve to Death strikes to get the Nation its Independence. India was ruled by foreigners for years, and now we feel like foreigners in our own country. 

Thinking of all this, I drive to my office this morning, I read a note on one of the barricades that the Greater Hyderabad Municipal Corporation uses during work. It said "Your Taxes at Work". Its an irony that we have to read it, despite being aware that our taxes are eaten away by the stray dogs of the country. My heart cried out loud, when I read that note. it said "I am a helpless Indian."

Always give it another chance....

Why I started off this blog is actually to express how deeply I am affected by one event that happened to me an year and a half ago, and how it has turned my life. The incident created a completely disastrous impact on me and made me dubious about the soul purpose of life itself. I met one of my dad's cousins. While he was mentioning about one of his holiday trips in the US and the clearing trail activity, I realized that most of our lives are just similar to that.A clearing trail is a trekking activity, where a group of people walk the trail by clearing up the broken branches and debris and walk up the trail. There are a few signs, which lead you in the correct direction. He mentioned, that only one person in his group was able to lead the group and it took less than 5 minutes for every one else to get lost, because that guy had tried it out so many times, before, which probably means, he always gave it an another chance until he got it right.

The realization struck me like a lightning that I would have been an ass, if I had not given my life an other chance, each time I Failed. As one of my uncle puts it, there is nothing called a failure, it is only a feedback.  A technical example to expatiate that idea. A controller, controls the error, between what is required and what is achieved to make the error zero and reach steady state.  How to control error, is the attitude, we should  be looking for.

In fact, a couple of years ago, I quit. I quit everything, I quit jobs, I quit life and quit my happiness, I quit my passion, I quit my ambitions and goals for a while. Then I realized, I am not my true self when I quit. I just wanted to give my life another chance and prove to myself, that I am strong enough to complete any trail. The clearing part of the activity, is to make the trail look clean when you look back and also to make it easy for a few people who wanna be on your side when you are walking the trail.

Lets all always give it another chance until we get it right.